Winds

So after a year and a half of not posting a single thing on here and simply just scrolling through my dashboard all the time, I figure I may as well start things up again and begin to post! I’ve always wanted to keep somewhat of a journal, or more so just a way to keep track of the little things going on in my life, so why not do it here. With that being said, here are some updates on my life recently!
  I really feel in a good spot in my life right now. I feel that over the past year and a bit, I’ve really grown up a lot in so many ways and I’ve just become so much more independent than I used to be, and feeling confident in it none the less. Although just as of recently, I’ve come to admit it to myself that perhaps I don’t like working with kids as much as I thought I did (meaning that I’m going to have to re-think my future in general) I believe this is actually a GOOD thing. I’d hate to just settle because it’s the easiest thing at this point. Finding something that I genuinely enjoy and look forward to is what I really want when I come out of school, even if that means spending much more time in school than I originally expected.
My plan up until just a couple weeks ago was to go into Child Studies at Carleton and see where that would take me; whether it be teacher’s college, or obviously anything along the lines of working with children. BUT, unfortunately as I said before, I’m admitting it to myself that I’m not as passionate about children as I thought I was, and I really don’t want a big feeling of regret after graduating. So this is where the big news comes out.. I thought to myself, why not TAKE A YEAR OFF AND MOVE OUT? I guess it may sound a little pointless and like a waste of money, but after a couple visits down to Toronto to see my friends who live on their own, I just soo badly want to experience that for myself and really see what it’s like. I really think I would learn a lot about myself, and hopefully the ultimate goal achievement would be to have figured out the whole question that everyone asks themselves, “What do I want to do with my life?” 
The even bigger thing would be if I moved out, I would want to not only just move out of my house, but also out of Ottawa. I’ve lived in the same house since the day I was born. If I’m gonna move out, I want it to be a huge change. If I were to really go through with this (which I actually DO plan on doing), Toronto would be my area of choice! Whenever I go there, I always have an awesome time, and it’s not only because of the awesome people I’m with. The busy, yet somewhat ‘care-free’ atmosphere of Toronto really has something that attracts me to it, and living there would be a whole new, and ( I think?) great experience. I have a couple living options in mind, and thinking about it gets me so so excited!! As much as I would miss the crap out of my mom (lol), I think that this is the best time to do something like this and ‘figure myself out’.
On ANOTHER EXCITING NOTE… I’m going on a giant travelling trip this year!!! Well, not giant, but giant to what I have experienced in the past. On May 7th - June 26th, I will be in Europe! Can’t say Europe is one of those places that I’ve always wanted to travel, but I’m still FREAKING EXCITED. Travelling… with 3 of my amazing friends… what could be better right?! For 4 of the 6 weeks I’m there I’ll be travelling around with friends, and for the last 2 weeks I’ll be working at a day camp in Italy! So excited. This is a whole new thing I have never experienced before.
  Well, this post was much longer than expected. I guess it was kinda just a way to really sum up the major updates and thoughts in my life for myself. I find writing things down is the best way to get your thoughts clear, and it’s something I definitely don’t do enough.